And you are marveling at how you feel you have finally let go. And you are excited and full of new dreams. And then you remember the old one for just one second. And then you know the best thing to do is go to sleep. And you wonder if you will ever be able to stop asking yourself “what if.” And you wonder how you will know when you have really let go. And you fear you haven’t. And you fear you won’t. So you go to bed. Your just tired and a little sick. And that’s always when you feel lonely. And really it’s ok.