I know what I want. The issue always is the same. I want what I want-on my terms. The way I think it should be. The way I have been told to expect. Told by books, and movies, and friends. I have been watching my whole life. I didn’t mean to do it, but I couldn’t let it be enough. I thought I was in the right, I mean look at Ruth and Boaz right? But you know what, I wasn’t looking and Ruth and Boaz, I was just looking at Boaz.