Yesterday we started rehearsal for Little Woman. I am playing Meg March which is a totally different from any role I have every played. Its going to be a lot of work for me. A lot of work. We are in the middle of the read through which is always hard for me, but this time I really have no idea what I am doing. I wanted this role and I still do, but its really going to take a lot of work for me to pull it off. So readers you are going to be hearing a lot about my trials and triumphs during the next few months. I am excited and scared at the same time. But by Gods grace I can do this!
Well its the last week of my summer. Tragic really. But it has been a good summer and all good things must come to a end. This summer I have learned a lot about people. How I understand them to be as opposed to how they really are. How to be a better friend, how much power I have to make people happy or unhappy (Not fun to learn about). I have also learned a lot about myself. What I want in life, what kind of person I want to be, what kind of people I want to surround myself with.
I have learned a lot about God. How he uses the hard things in our lives to shape us. He makes beautiful things.
This summer I have laughed until I thought I would die, cried until I ran out of tears. I have danced, swam, sung, talked, listened, watched, and learned. I got up to see the sun rise, I stayed up to see the sun set. I jumped in the creek in the early morning, I picnicked and wabawabaed. I went on rides and screamed. I had water fights and screamed. I got stung by a bee and screamed. I screamed a lot. I got stuck in a tree, looked at some art, got dressed up, and ate faster than anyone. I climbed a rock, I hid in a town, I talked by a river, I saw a play, saw fire works in the rain, I jumped in a fountain, and played in the mud. I made amazing friends that I will have for the rest of my life. I said goodbye to friends who are grown up now, and friends that live in far off places, and have more goodbyes coming. It was a great summer and I will never forget it.
But now its time for me to dust off my brain and get back into the school mind set. I am not looking forward to it but I am going to make the best of it, its where God has me right now. So goodbye summer. Hello last year of life as I have known it.
A picture of something I wish I was better at:
A song that makes me laugh. “Home” By Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
It makes me laugh because of the accents, which I think are awesome. (Swearing goes down in this song. Be warned.)
This song means a lot to me for many many reasons. It was a song played a lot in my house in Iowa before we made the big move and because I associated it with moving I grew to dislike the song. When we moved to River Ter in the fall it still played at our house a lot. But sitting by the fire place with my family hearing it was comforting in this time when my life had been uprooted and I had no friends who lived with-in three hours or me. Then there was a gap when I didn’t listen to this song. And my life seemed good, I was making friends, I was taking acting classes there seemed to be no darkness in my life, I didn’t need to go to the valley. But this year, it must have been in May, I started listening to this song again, but this time not just hearing it because it was playing, but listening to it. I now see the darkness in my life, but that darkness only brings me into the lights deeper. The lyrics along with the tune (which brings me back to older days which now look beautiful to me) encourage my soul. I find myself up crying in the middle of the night, and this is the song I put on. Please listen to it, and don’t judge it by the style of music that it is. These words are beautiful.
When You lead me to the valley of vision
I can see You in the heights
And though my humbling wouldn’t be my decision
It’s here Your glory shines so bright
So let me learn that the cross precedes the crown
To be low is to be high
That the valley’s where You make me more like Christ
Let me find Your grace in the valley
Let me find Your life in my death
Let me find Your joy in my sorrow
Your wealth in my need
That You’re near with every breath
In the valley
In the daytime there are stars in the heavens
But they only shine at night
And the deeper that I go into darkness
The more I see their radiant light
So let me learn that my losses are my gain
To be broken is to heal
That the valley’s where Your power is revealed
This is just a fast post to let everyone know that yesterday was a great day. All around, it was great. Thats all I have to say. This post is nothing poetically, romantic (in a Anne of Green Gables way), fun, or crazy amazing, but yesterday was.
Also who wants a song? 🙂 This has nothing to do with anything, but I have been playing it non stop.
We got together and made a video. And it got a bit messed up in the end, but I like it. And I like the people in this video.
As a young lady often I want there to be romance in my life. Specifically the romance of falling in love and being fallen in love with. This is something I think most single ladies fight with. Feeling like we am not fulfilled with out a fellow to call us his own.
Before I fall head over heels in love with a man I want to fall more in love with my savior.
The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied
For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love
A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied
The kind of woman I want to be is like this woman.
She lives her life for the glory of God
Is glad she is a woman and expresses that
Does not compete with men for equality but understands that both have their own roles to play
She seeks wisdom
Strives for self control over emotions
Does not voice or wallow in her complaints
Is trust worthy and respectible
Does not gossip but speaks with wisdom and discretion
Encourages rather than bring down
Does not nag or manipulate
She is modest inside as well as outside
Knows her heart is her true beauty
Respects men who treat her with a gentlemanly air and is forgiving to those who don’t
Seeks to make God number one in her life
Leaves the details of her future to God
Does not flirt-rather saves all passion for her future
Holds her purity before marriage as sacred, both in body and in heart
Uses her single years to serve God
She creates beauty
Practices the things she desires others to practice
Knows when to laugh and when to cry
Listens first, talks second
She finds the beauty and joy in all situations
I doubt I will even be like this woman, but its what I am aiming for. Maybe by the time I am 98 I will be like her.